In theory, I should feel like I am slowly but surely inching my way towards having this whole NY Bar thing under some semblance of control (See all those qualifiers right there? That would be because I am INSANELY superstitious about these things and am terrified of jinxing myself). And it seems like, in theory, some things are clicking (You need physical injury for negligent infliction of emotional harm! Every dog gets one bite! etc. etc.).

Today I did a big chunk of practice questions. The thing about Bar.Bri/the bar is that they tell you to aim for being mediocre because that’s all you really need to pass. Which, fair enough. Each set for each subject area was 36 questions (the multi.state exam tests on six subject areas: Con. Law, Contracts, Crim. Law, Evidence, Real Property, and Torts) and Bar.Bri is happy if you get between 16 and 18 right in each section. My breakdown was: Con. Law: 20 right, Contracts: 14 rights, Crim. Law: 14 rights, Evidence: 23 right, Real Property: 26 right, and Torts: 22 right. Which is all very well and good, except normally Contracts and Crim. Law are my strongest (everything is relative here) subjects and that, coupled with the fact that I feel like I’m just kind of guessing/going with my gut about 90% of the time, leads me to believe that everything thus far is just a fluke and in no way reflects how I’m going to do on the real thing.

And I HAVE to pass the real thing. If you are not up on the legal hiring market these days, let me tell you that it is essentially the same as the job market everywhere, meaning, it sucks due to the economy. So I am very lucky because I have a job, but that job seems rather tenuous these days. And I HAVE to keep my job because I have six figures of debt from law school. It’s ugly.

Some thoughts/words of wisdom for the night before I retreat back into studying: I benefited a lot in going to school where I went to school. Although it gets bashed a lot of ATL (likely for this very reason), the G.town name does carry weight. And that weight translates into (at least in the past – not sure how it is working for current interviewing rising 2L) job opportunities. Maybe G.town is not going to get you the best clerkship in the world, but in the BigLaw world it gets a lot of respect that other schools don’t. I had 11 job offers from really good firms (not the BEST, but close) when I did EIW. One of the boyfriend’s friends went to American. He was my year. He was Law Review, top 5% of his class (I was not either one of those things). He had no offers. Did comparatively deserve my offers? Probably not. Life is not fair.

That said, was G.town worth it? I have a RIDICULOUS amount of debt – debt that will take me at least 5 years to pay off (I am very lucky in that I have no undergrad debt – thanks mom and dad!). What’s frustrating about the amount of debt that I have is that there is really nothing I could have done to make it less. I worked my first year of law school and went to school at night. Certainly I could have kept doing that, but in the long run, I decided that it would be more practical to graduate in three years instead of four. Because I worked for G.town, I did get a tuition break, (although I was taxed at 40% on that tuition break, so it’s not as good of a deal as it sounds), and my living expenses were pretty much covered. I lived very reasonably throughout law school and definitely stayed on a budget.* And still I have six figures of debt, the bulk of which is tuition costs. So while going to G.town definitely helped me get a job, it also ensured that I would need that Big.Law job in order to pay G.town back. Perfect circle right there folks.

So we now end where we started: with a fifi freakout. I have a feeling there are going to be many more of these over the next 2 weeks.

*You may be wondering about scholarships. That is where going to somewhere like UVA would have been a better choice. First off, G.town does not offer any grants (scholarships) based on merit, everything is need-based. In order to apply for this aid, no matter what your living situation (you could be married and have your own kids), you have to submit your parents’ (including stepparents and non-custodial parents, as per the G.town website) financial information and that information is then factored into the calculations. So even though I was completely independent/supporting myself when I applied to law school, my parents make enough money that I was closed out of being eligible for any grants. Second, these grants are not available to part-time students.

In contrast, the boyfriend got over $10,000 a year from UVA just for being smart and doing well on the LSATs. Cost of living was also much cheaper in Charlottesville and UVA tuition was less as well. I decided to stay at G.town mostly because I thought I wanted to keep working, but in retrospect, going to another school or  even transferring probably would have been a better choice financially.

I am graduated. Congrats to me.

So grades are up and it appears that I will indeed be graduating on Sunday (i.e. I did not fail). Rock on. I am likely going to disappear for the next few days because a) the packing plan is still stuck approximately where it was when last we discussed it, b) the family is touching down in T minus 20-ish hours, c) I have four separate people coming between 8 and 9 tomorrow morning to pick up things I sold online (I was not on top of booking the service elevator and so that was the only time it was available), d) the boyfriend will be around and he 1) does not know about the blog and 2) will not appreciate me sitting around blogging while he packs, e) GRADUATION – it is an all day affair, and f) loading the cars/driving six-ish hours home/unpacking/getting settled back at home. But never you fear. Once I am settled back at home, we have tons to discuss: law school, graduation, grades, where I’ve been when I’ve said I was working, selling things online, Rock of Love Charm School, etc. etc. I will also finish the introductions to the main characters you are likely to meet around here. So stick around.

Until then, I leave you with a picture post showing a pile of things pre-getting wrapped up in packing paper and stuck in a box.

stuffSo we have:

1) the fiestaware creamer/sugar bowl set. My mom gives me a piece every year for Christmas.

2) Carved wooden box from the boyfriend’s & my trip to Costa Rica during spring break ’08.

3) Wooden bowl from our trip to Sicily this past fall for the boyfriend’s cousin’s wedding. 

4) Pottery vase from our trip to Peru during spring break ’07.

5) Stone vase from my trip to Greece with the family during summer ’07 (I studied in London for the summer and then met up with the family in Greece before returning to the States).

6) Blue and white clay vase made by the Bro in his art class during his senior year of high school. Isn’t it good? I was very impressed. 

So off I go to finish packing. I may be drinking wine while I do this. The boyfriend will be oh-so-thrilled when he gets here 🙂 (he has had a very long & tough week at work – it was up in the air until a little bit ago as to whether or not he’d actually be able to come. Which would have been a pretty big issue since he missed my college graduation for his brother’s bachelor party).

And I’m DONE! I think the final went pretty well yesterday, but it was incredibly long so by the time it was all over and done all I had the energy to do last night was sit on the couch and watch the Amazing Race finale from Sunday with my friend D and drink beers. The last couple of days are also really catching up with me – I didn’t sleep well Sunday night because of the standard “what if I sleep through my alarm and miss my exam” panic (never-you-mind that my exam was at 1:30) and last night I couldn’t fall asleep because, despite the beers, I was still all hyped up with exam adrenaline. So now I’m tired. I wanted to go to yoga tonight, but I’m not sure that I’m going to leave work in time. 

I remembered Sunday night that I had an update on the Q situation for you all that I find quite amusing/disturbing, but I had already posted, what?, 3 times on Sunday and decided I should make some pretense of actually studying. Although he has still not told M of his intention to break up with her, he is apparently acting not only like they have broken up and started doing so right around when he told the boyfriend of his decision, but also is acting like M broke up with him. When Q was visiting the boyfriend he and the boyfriend went to the same bar that we went to with the boyfriend’s ex-office mate Friday night. When we were there, the same bartender was there and came over to ask about Q – turns out Q spent the whole night flirting with her. In addition, he annoyed everyone in the bar by hijacking the jukebox to play maudlin “breakup music” all night (including repeating certain songs as he felt he needed them). Apparently Stevie Nicks is the only woman that truly understands Q – and Silver Springs is the only song that truly speaks to where Q is now. Awesome. Poor M.

So I have lots of grand ideas of things I want to write about, but all are being put on hold until I get through my antitrust final. Turns out launching a blog and studying for finals do not mesh particularly well…

Stay with me though! I’m fun, promise 🙂